Update 2.6.2012: It appears teapartycommunity.com blocked my IP, which is exposed by design in our comments. This is remarkable given the amount of effort that must have been invested to not only find this post, but to inspect the comments in order to discover my IP address. My next post on the subject will be about the astounding hypocrisy of the underlying justification for starting TeaPartyCommunity.com
Perusing the new TeaPartyCommunity.com Facebook-like platform, I was riveted by “Cade’s comment” as an excellent illustration of the tension between high self-conviction and low emotional intelligence in the conservative religious mind.
…which compelled me to read the top post “My Conundrum” which struck me as so perfectly juxtaposed to Cade’s comment as an example of the opposite tension, lower self-conviction, higher emotional intelligence. “My Conundrum” is posted also in its entirety below Cade’s comment immediately below.
“Christopher Noyes – Well Cade, you are what we call around here, complicated. Truth is we all are complicated, how we resolve inner conflict plays a big part in determining our character.
First, you did not abuse the safety net, and I do not believe the safety net ought to be removed. The problem with the safety net is the abuse of it that is cultivated and facilitated for either criminal or political reasons. It is there for people who, like you, had an untimely life threatening event, an emergency of life or death. Reforms may not be able to correct the safety net, and I would rather see it in the hands of the church like it was at one time, but the truth is the only way the government got a foot hold into social welfare is the church abdicated its responsibility a long time ago.
Second, God has never left you, he does not despise you, he has brought all of these things in your life for your edification because you are his adopted son and he loves you. I encourage you to ask Him to give you eyes to see how He has and is expressing His Love for and toward you. Many have the false belief that if they are a Christian they will have a good and trouble free life. This is a lie from Satin himself. You see…if you are to have a wonderful life, then when you have trouble you can accuse god for letting you down. Do you see it? God has promised he will never despise any he has chosen, Christ will never loose any of the souls his Father has given him charge over. What shepherd would not leave his flock to find the one sheep that went astray? Do you see it? The gospel preached today is one of health, wealth,and smooth sailing. The real gospel is “I bring not peace, but a sword”, “marvel not that the world hates you because it first hated me”, and on and on. Repentance is simply seeing the error, confessing it as such, and asking for forgiveness. All of the heavy lifting is done by Christ.
Third, your initial error in thinking is that you somehow deserved your salvation, a good life, with God as your safety net in this world. Do not take this as an allegation…it is very common in our culture today, and it is an out right lie. Those who preach this false gospel today are to blame…and I for one would not want to face God having perverted his truth for profit. Again, ask God to give you eyes to see where you have been in error. He is faithful and will give you and answer, often we do not ask because we do not want the answer because it is not the one that supports our mistaken feel good beliefs.
If you think these words are harsh, think on this. This is my confession, accusing god of not being fair with me, feeling like a victim, feeling squelched because of my history of failings. But I knew better, I have heard the hard words of the true gospel, that he will never leave or forsake me…and had seen his faithfulness time and time again. Yet still, one day the unthinkable happened. For over a year the only verse that came to my mind was of Job,s wife, she told Job “curse god and die”, his simple response, “though He slay me, will I love Him”. If you are not familiar with the story…it starts out with God admiring his faithful servant Job…Satin heard this and said…let me sift him as wheat, he will deny you then. God allowed this to happen…this sifting. I will never make it back to where I was. This is a very good thing. You see, God had to destroy an idol I was holding onto that was holding me back in order for Him to give me something better.
This better place has modified my thoughts about my faith, who my Father, Savior, and Holy inspiration are. Political and social issues also are in a different context. FYI also was raised in the Roman church but left it soon after high school. It took eight years for the Lord to bring me to the church I have been in for the past 25 years. Pursue faith born out of Truth.
Ask…He is faithful and will answer.”
…and the the original top post.
I just want to say hello to the community and express my happiness that I found a place like this. I have to admit, I was hesitant at first to join because I am at a time in my life where there is a lot of confusion swirling around my head, particularly around my political leanings. I guess since I was old enough to be politically aware, I have always felt I was conservative and a good conservative at that. When I was younger, I was more Libertarian then gradually shifted toward social conservatism as I got older and closer to God. I have always supported the free market and the dismantling of the social safety net, which makes the government an enabler of laziness if you ask me. More recently, I’ve become strongly pro-life and my convictions towards it grew stronger over time. I don’t have a huge problem with homosexuality on its face, but I don’t think we need gay marriage in order to extend equal rights and I certainly don’t think it’s a good idea to put children in these types of homes. And I was good with all of this until something happened to me one day five years ago. Something that changed my life forever and something that caused a lot of confusion. Something that may me doubt whether I was a good conservative and since it can never be undone… can I, in good conscious, fight for a system I inadvertently took advantage of?
On a summer day five years ago, I started to feel ill. It didn’t seem like anything more than a head cold at the time. I had recently moved back from Florida to Pennsylvania, having been chased out of my job down there. It was an ugly breakup, but I was determined to get back on my feet. I refused unemployment insurance out of principle, even though I paid into it. I was engaged at the time and found myself without health insurance. My illness got worse and worse by the day and my insurance situation held me back from seeing a doctor. With no income and no insurance, I really didn’t have the means to go. Not that I was complaining, I mean, I dug this hole myself, so I was going to stand in it, head held high. After all, regardless of the circumstances, I did leave my job voluntarily. Turns out that I wasn’t going to beat my illness on my own. After my mother had insisted I go to the emergency room, I was soon diagnosed with Legionnaires Disease. I spent the next six weeks of my life in a drug-induced coma and underwent surgery to remove some infection around my lung. On at least one occasion, I coded… in other words, my heart stopped and I was essentially dead. But I awoke. And when I did, I soon learned that my mother (a Democrat, no less) secured my paperwork that made me eligible for Pennsylvania’s medical assistance, a program designed for people who can’t afford health insurance and need it. My doctor and hospital bills totaled $1.5 million dollars and of that total only a pittance was paid to the doctors, nurses and hospital that saved my life.
My family, friends and fiancé told me that it was time to move on. That I’d survived something that would have killed me if I were 10 years younger or 20 years older. But my convictions, to this day, have made that hard for me. I feel as if I will forever be a taker because I can never give back what I’ve received. If I live to 100, I couldn’t repay those bills, even though I am not being asked to do it. At times, I feel I am the person I so despise out in the world. It’s very confusing for me. Can I criticize another for something I’ve done myself? Can I ever call myself a conservative with confidence? And since I could never consider myself liberal, does this relegate me to political purgatory for the rest of my life?
And to top all this off, I’ve grown farther from God as well. How could he let this happen to one of his true believers? And when I lay there, dead, why did I not see the light or any sort of sign? Where was he? Believe me, I understand that it was He who decided that I should survive to fight another day and I thank Him everyday for it… but at this cost? I mean, I haven’t even had my child baptized and he’s almost three. Church is a long lost custom for me. I just feel that the connection is gone… the test was too great. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve got a good life and appreciate my loving wife, a healthy son and the fact that I still wake up in the morning… but I just want to be a good conservative and Catholic and I feel that may be something I’ll never be able to be again.
Anyway, thanks for listening. I’d love to hear your take on this whole thing. I’ve never really had access to a like-minded forum like this. Facebook pages are okay, but they generally devolve into yelling matches because liberals, as I’ve noticed, generally have no manners to speak of.”